Learning of You

On the night of August 23rd, I woke up in the night feeling dizzy and nauseous, I really didn't think much of it. It certainly never crossed my mind that I might be pregnant, because I was too scared to hope that's what it could be. Daddy was preaching that morning at church and since I still wasn't feeling great Jotham and I stayed home hoping that I'd feel well enough to still go on the trip we'd been planning.  After a shower and taking it easy I did start to feel better, I don't remember if I did throw up or not, but I kept packing and getting ready for our two day trip to Manitoba. When Daddy came home he told me how he'd been talking with others at church and said how I was at home because I had woken up nauseous and dizzy, and they asked him right away, "Is Lisa pregnant?" Daddy told them "Not that I know of", but he then began wondering if I was. I had been complaining of feeling like I was gaining wait, and because of how I felt Daddy thought it might be possible. I still wasn't ready to hope, though I secretly did hope I was pregnant. 

We went on our trip to Manitoba and had a great time visiting with our friends and seeing some new places. I felt better on the trip, so didn't think too much about if I was pregnant until our last day. While we were walking around the Assiniboine Park  Zoo I began feeling like I had no energy, even pushing the stroller felt like too muh work. This was very similar to how I felt when I was pregnant with Jotham. I still was scared to hope too much because I didn't want to be disappointed if I wasn't pregnant.

Our week continued and though I was still feeling well, I did notice more each day that my clothes weren't fitting as well as they had. I felt like I had a little baby belly already. Though I still wasn't ready to take a test I picked a day when I would. Daddy has Monday's off so I picked that day, though it was a few days away to be the day I would take a pregnancy test. Throughout the week I would talk to you or really think at you, telling you I hoped you were there, that I loved you and wanted you to be there, and that I wasn't a crazy lady thinking at an empty womb. 

On the 30th of August we went to Roche Percee as we had heard it was really cool, with lots of rocks and trails. As we were getting ready to go I tried on a pair of shorts that just a couple weeks before had fit fine and now there was not a chance I could do them up. It was at that moment I knew for sure there really was a baby growing inside me. I still waited to take the test the next day. Here are Daddy and Jotham hiding in the rocks below, and then Mommy and Jotham sitting in the rocks.

                       On Monday the 31st of August I woke up when Jotham got me up and took the pregnancy test with me to the bathroom. I was still a little nervous taking it even though I was pretty certain it would be positive. I was excited to see the plus sign appear and showed it to Jotham and told him to bring it to Daddy who was still in bed. Jotham brought it over and then came back to me with it, so I helped him show Daddy. We were all so excited to know for sure you were going to be part of our family. We were so in love with you already. Jotham was excited though because we were, he didn't quite understand yet what this meant, but as you can see he sure was happy.

  

We celebrated knowing you were coming by going on a long walk around all around town, and stopped for lunch at Timmy's at about the halfway mark. It was a special day and we were so excited to know that you'd be coming into our family.  I was even able to get a doctors appointment for later in the afternoon. Dr. Noel thought we were already 9 weeks along but we knew we wouldn't know for sure until we had an ultrasound. Part of me wanted to be that far along already because then you would be here sooner, but I also didn't want to miss out on knowing you were growing in me for so long. We had to wait for the ultrasound to find out which it would be. I had some blood work done that afternoon and booked my first prenatal appointment. I was already looking forward to getting my maternity clothes out because I knew how much more comfortable I would be in them. 

So that's how we found out we were going to add another member to our family. You were so wanted, so hoped for and so loved.