A couple weeks ago Jotham and I were talking about middle names. I told him your middle name was Dekyr, he thought that was a pretty funny middle name and laughed and laughed about it. He also said he wished you were here so he could play with you. 

Yesterday after we were at the doctor's Jotham said he wanted another Zephaniah, one we could keep. He sure misses you, just like me and Daddy do. 

"My baby brother died" Jotham said to me this afternoon while we were at a 5-day club. The leader was telling a story where an older brother died and I wasn't sure Jotham was even listening, but he was. "You're right, your baby brother died" I told him, while trying to hold back the tears (it really wasn't the place to start crying). Later the leader was talking about Heaven and he also talked about Jesus rising from the dead. Jotham asked, "Zephaniah will come alive again?" I wasn't sure what he meant, I told him Zeph was alive in Heaven and that we'd see him then when we go to Heaven. Jotham said "No you silly-billy,  he can come back now". So I explained to him a bit more about Heaven and that we couldn't see Zeph until we go to Heaven too. Not sure exactly what he understands. It makes me both sad and happy that he knows he has a brother, I just wish so much that Zephaniah was here with us too.