Missing You

I've been missing you a lot this last week. I keep remembering how this time last year I was pregnant with you and all the things we did with Jotham thinking that next year he would have a sibling to do things with him. Like having someone to celebrate his birthday with. Jotham turns 3 tomorrow, and I wish so much that you were here to celebrate with us. I want to watch Jotham give you hugs and kisses and watch you try to play with all his toys that you're too young for. I want to be buying rice cereal and giving you your first tastes of solid food.  I want to be getting up 3 times during the night to feed you or cuddle you. But I never got that chance, and it just hurts.